Saturday, October 14, 2006
- wahz lao... my queensway boss sux... bastard mi... i din go for skin food de training coz i tot i wun be wking anymore... end up my boss msg mi yest saying she got a full timer... damn fuck up... i should have listen to gracie... juz ignore my boss get a higher pay job... hope gracie can help mi get biotherm de job... i can't survive without job... need some income... my skin food job ish higher than my qs job... then i stop wking there after sch start coz i told my qs boss i can wk after sch start... sux lorz... now i gonna find job again... weekend job not easy find... hope can get a commission de... then i can wk hard for my pay... all the best to myself... hehe...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
- sho fast jiu oct le... sch gonna start soon le... sianz... haven earn enough for myself... hehe... need more income... hehe...
having prob recently wif bi... kinda solved... but i still can't let it go easily... maybe ish coz i need ppl to talk to or i juz need him to tell mi to trust him... the incident go like this.......
bi went out wif his best frenz... which ish a ger... who ish from our sec sch... & he use to like her in the past... well... i'm sho eager to noe how she look like... sho i went to see the yr bk... then i sho eager to noe how she look like now... sho i went to browse around in friendster... well... not veri gd looking... but bi like ppl coz he like... no matter how the person look like... sho... uncertain... i'm afraid... i'm rude enough... i went to see his msg from his hp... seeing him type to the ger... after they went hm... i juz rmb he type some stuff & say "fen shou" kinda thin... i totally breakdown... i dunno wat to say... i show him the msg & ask him wat izzit about... he juz give mi attitude as if he ish rite & say it meant to be a joke... it's not funny lorz... sho sad... i can't take it man... i might be a happy go lucky person in life... but i take relationship seriously... we quarrel... he show mi attitude... he sux lorz... if he din do anythin behind mi... y he can't juz tell mi wat happen & he can be trusted... i juz need him to talk nicely to mi & tell mi wat happen... i'm nice enough to ask him... though in a rude way... but i think gers out there will juz give their guy a slap... we din settle the matter by dat day... somehow went hm cool down... i cry myself to slp dat nitez... i can't take it... 9 months of relationship... he send those flirting msg to a ger... the next day he sux more... i msg him, he neva reply... then we wk at qs... i remind him got wk... he totally no reply mi... and i call him to check whether he rmb to go wk... after dat he dun even bother to msg mi... wat the hell... u are angry?? u stand no right man!!! angry of mi coz of her... wat the hell!! if she ish gd... go for her... y the hell ish he here wif mi?? end up i think... i always oso play wif frenz... but i got tell him wat i told whoever wat de... he din...but i reali dunno wat to do... thinking am i over reacting?? am i too much?? izzit he reali din do anythin dat's y he angry wif my reaction?? sho i intend to call ricky to talk... after talking to ricky... i think we need to talk in a better way... i msg him saying i wait for him finish wk... he at last reply... he bought mi a bag dat i like... i din show him face... i normally dun show attitude to him in front of ppl... coz i dun wan him to feel pai sehz... we talk... he told mi bout their outing... but i still feel insecure... i need sometime to trust him... seriously he have neva do anythin dat make mi feels secure & safe to be wif him... from the start... i dun even noe his frenz, his life & wateva bout him... until now... i still not totally sure... he told mi... he see no point in lying to mi... but i scare he did some stuff & dare not say... & he'll say... i see no point in saying... i'm a veri sensitive person... & of coz veri jealous person oso... i try to act generous to let him go out wif her... but i noe i can't... sho i end up throwing temper... actuali... i juz need him to tell mi he can be trusted & he wun lie to mi... he have neva console mi wif any word... i dun need any action to show... i juz need word this time... he juz can't give... to him... if i go out wif a guy or 1 group of guy... he oso wun bother... the most he'll do ish juz to say careful... dat's all... if i dun tell him wat actuali happen or who actuali i'm out wif he's okie wif it... but to mi... i need to noe everythin... even wat u all do when u are out... izzit sho difficult to say?? although he told mi wat happen... i'm still scare... scare he'll change his heart... i can't let go... i'll totally breakdown de... juz hope nothin ish happening... still uncertain bout it... anyone wif any advice to make mi feel better??
zul told mi... if this thin can solve... we'll have a stronger relationship... i hope we can reali have a stronger relationship... he's part of my life... i even dream of him going out wif dat ger... though a dunno her look... it's like nightmare... omg... but i try to believe dat anythin ish not seen by my own eyes can't be true... but i like to think & imagine... hehe... i believe i'll be love and neva be let go... he'll reali love mi as much as i do... pls make my wish come true... everyone wish to be loved... would i be the one u choose to love forever??
[[ hopefully nothing ish happening... ]]
[[ i will learn to trust him if he earn the trust... ]]
[[ i believe dat one day i'll be the luckiest and most fortune person to be love by him... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
*uncertain*
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
- din update for quite long le... well... recently wking 2 job... sometime 3... hehe... wk as promoter at parkway parade mostly on weekday... queensway on weekend... & sometime newspaper wk for aunt... hehe... gonna earn like hell... hehe... qs de pay lower... 4.5 bucks per hr... but nvm... juz wk... anyway slack... hehe... next week whole week at qs... boss going aboard... hehe... anyway got result recently... not bad... gpa 3... wahaha... i got ad somemore... reali got everythin in np le... from ad to f... wahaha... thanz to my lect for the ad... wahaha... he help mi get gpa 3 de... hehe... muz jia you... hehe... today went to the tanglin camp there see arts stuff... neva finish walking around... can't go le... humph... but nvm... experience some nice stuff... hehe... today oso go eat the choc thingy at esplanade wif bi & ken... nice nice... but u muz like choc larz... hehe... my frenz wk there... then got some free stuff... hehe... thanz... hehe... bi bi sick to say mi le... everywhere oso got frenz... but gd wat... get free stuff wor... hehe... anyway cheap... we onli eat 40 plus... hehe... this few times mi & bi keep eating nice stuff... i'll become fat 1 day... wahaha... imagine round amelia... wahaha... sure funny de... hehe... tml gonna wk at parkway... go slp le... nitez nitez... hehe...
[[ love u like i neva done before... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
- well... i've been wking for 3 days le... sho tired... wonder wat i wk?? hehe... wking at parkway parade inside as a skin product de promoter... well... the product name ish skin food... think not bad... tried b4... coz cousin wk in the company... but it ish specially for sensitive, oily or dry skin... not reali for normal skin... hehe... but still okie... frenz can try... not bad... they got 3 outlet onli... coz quite new... onli 1 yr plus... hehe... onli parkway parade ish in isetan... another 2 outlet ish shop... raffles and marina... but i not sure where... their product ish from korea... muz ask the person intro... coz the discrition there not detail de... hehe... promoting now... wahaha...
back to topic... surpose to be giving out coupon... but end up be promoter.. hehe... coz no more coupon to give... the part timer give away on sat & sun le... hehe... tiring sia... stand there for 8 hrs... damn cold somemore... but pay not bad... 6 bucks... sho i'll jia you... but onli 1 week... dunno they need other part timer anot... coz they juz got 1... actuali standing ish okie... but my heels ish injured last time... now stand a few hrs jiu pain le... hehe...
mon after wk went find bi bi then go grap some food eat...
then yest bi bi come fetch mi though he got wk in the morning... hehe... but he lost his way... wahaha... ben bi bi... bleahz... tell the whole world u lost ur way... actuali not lost larz... ish he alight too earli then realise after he alight... hehe... too late... wahaha... by the time i finish wk le... sho wait for him a while then go eat... hehe... thanz bi bi... hehe...
today at last give out coupon... but hate s'porean... b4 u tell them it's free gift, they say dun wan... then when u say free... straight away stop & ask wat's dat... then sure take de... nitez bought bread hm eat... hehe... gonna slp le... nitez frenz... hehe...
anyway wk there 2nd day jiu see a frenz le... bi bi say "see frenz again"... i go everywhere oso will see frenz... hehe... but here sho far le still can see... wahaha... bleahz... take care frenz...
if got job lobang tell mi... wanna wk like hell for holiday... in need of money... thanz...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Thursday, August 24, 2006
- wow... last paper tml... sho fast... tml ish tp paper... the paper i fail in ct... hope i'll rmb the formula tml... hope wun go blank... hehe... muz jia you all my frenz... hehe... juz finish my online assignment... sho proud of myself.. coz i did the assignment without referring to bk & without cheating... but actuali easy de... it's all 1 step calculation... hehe... tml onwards can relax le... gonna find job... frenz got lobang muz tell mi wor... thin i start wk from sept... then can relax a while first... hehe... sho tired... at last gonna end of exams... thin this time de gpa not bad... onli scare tp... hehe... anyway today last day of "july"(hungry ghost fest) gonna be another "july"... who noe those thin still around in this july marz?? they going bsck or still got 1 month holi arhz?? though i din meet any... of coz dun wish to meet them... but still scare when i walk hm late... hehe... anyway i still haven receive all the pics on the sch dinner... who have it?? wei haven send mi... wan bomb her le.. hehe... see u again guys... muackz... love u guys... hehe...
somehow tot of my relationship... can't expect much... juz hang on... hehe... today gd mood... write everythin oso happy... hehe...
miss my mummy... haven see her this week... thin fri or wat go visit her... hehe... sat mama coming hm again... hehe... anyway she today went check up... doc say her getting better... wanna give her another therapy... then we dun wan... she sho scare of needle le... dun give better... let her eat med jiu hao... hopefully she'll live longer than expected... love u mummy...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Sunday, August 13, 2006
- wow... today mama came hm... actuali i was afraid anythin will happen to her if she come back... but until now... everythin still okie... hope she wun wake mi up in the nitez... tml she'll need to go back hospice... onli 1 day break... she damn happy... hehe... i oso happy though i miz my firework... hehe... tml gonna wake up earli... coz her med need to be taken at 8... thin i'll slp more... coz today dunno y feel giddy... sho... thin i need more rest... hehe... yest somethin veri dumb happen... well... shouldn't say out wat... it's a secret between mi & bi... a veri dumb secret... but nvm... hope everythin will be alright... juz to remind myself... <11> exams coming... jia you my frenz... take care...
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, August 04, 2006
- feeling confuse now... somehow uncertain wat i wan... dunno wat i doing... yest sho difficult then get to slp... i starting tot maybe coz he not hm yet... but when i wake up at 3 plus saw his msg dat he's hm... i still took quite long to slp... i oso dunno got slp anot... sho tired... and sho no mood... he din slp much oso... coz went frenz b'day... maybe ltr tell him i dun feel like seeing him today... then let him rest... he's making mi feel i need to learn to leave without him... if i reali learn to leave without him... thin dat's the day we end... i feel like crying out loud... sho xin ku... today sho no mood sia... dun feel like msg him oso... coz i suddenly thin nothin much to talk le... dunno y... after his presentation then tell him i dun wanna see him today... coz scare affect him presentation... but thin wun... he will neva be affected coz of wat i say de... but better wait for him to be done... sometime i thin he take mi for granted... i oso dunno... coz if he noe he meetin mi the next day... then the day before he wun wanna meet mi... y can't he treasure every moment?? but thin back... he may have his point of views... but he dun say... haiz... amm i thinking too much again?? muz forget... hehe... i'll be okie... hehe... grumble finish jiu okie le... hehe... tml will be better...
[[ hopefully nothin happen~ ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Thursday, July 27, 2006
- mama ish somehow recovering... her emo ish on & off... she can be veri gd to u today & scold u like hell on the next day... she scolded mi & daddy for dunno how many times le... hehe... but nvm... i like to play wif her... hehe... her memory oso weak le... everyday forget bout the day before... sho to her... everyday ish a new day... but she rmb some each day... tml onwards... mama will be transfer to dover park which ish at tan tock seng~!!! i oso dunno where... tml ah kim & daddy going wif mama... transport by ambulance... thin sat then go visit mama... but after transferring there... i will not visit her sho often le... coz far from sch... then if i finish by 4 or 5 go there jiu 6 or 7 le... pei her a while... by the time i reach hm jiu 10 or 11 le... wun have time for study & stuff... 2 more week study break... then exams... then find wk le... gonna wk to earn money... for jie jie, daddy, baby and mi... hope can have enough for all... hehe... the most i wk more... frenz... got lobang find mi... i wan wk... but i dun wan departmental stall... hehe... ma fan de mi... if i reali can't find pay more than 5 i jiu go imm de giant... hehe... wk wif en... hope they will hire mi... hehe...
recently got bi bi by mi... sho happy... but sometime the stuff he say do hurt... but can't blame him... the person in hosp ish not his mum... ish mine... sometime i juz wanna share thin wif him... but the thin he say ish not wat i expected... if i complain my mama scold mi... he'll say tape her mouth up... but to mi... i wish he'll say bo pian... she ish sick... or she not feeling well... or even juz ask mi to bear wif it... kinda thin... haiz... try to talk to him... but can't... normally when i start the topic... dunno y we end up change topic... & drop the topic... haiz... nothin wk... our talking distance drift apart le... haiz... at first i tot he can be the one who i talk to veri truely... but...... haiz... sometimes reali can't expect dat much bahz... hope we can have a gd talk... i thin communication ish the most important thin in a relationship... everythin i onli can hope~
[[ hopefully.... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Monday, July 17, 2006
- today ish a bad day?? it's my chi b'day... but i'm not happy... sorry reali dat difficult to say?? haiz... i oso dunno wat to do... izzit wrong to throw temper sometime?? i thin i'm not wrong... he oso thin he not wrong... haiz... today actuali bi wan fetch mi after sch then bring mi go eat... but he sho bad... at ken house till he forget time... haiz... sho disappointed... dat day go cut hair i late he show face... then now he break his "promise" wif mi... sho unfair... i can't angry mehz?? dat day i apologise to him... y he can't juz apologise?? he thin i over reacted again?? but i thin i'm not... if it's a normal day i nothin to say but it's "my day"... he wan bring go eat oso coz it's my day... i din force or ask him to... i told him i finishing latest at 6.30 but he still at his frenz house... haiz... sho pissed... but still meet him at clementi... ask him dun go ex place eat... we oso broke le... lucky he no late... if not i more pissed... when reach... he dun even bother to talk bout it... he juz forget it... i thin he thin dat this ish his way of handling thin... he wanna avoid arguement... but i thin it's not the way... sometime some stuff need talk de... cannot always like dat avoid de... haiz... i oso dunno how to talk to him... jiu kept quiet lorz... haiz... will this disappointment be kept in my heart?? hope this blog will help mi feel better... hope i'll forget bout it... haiz... hope 1 day he'll be more "thoughtful"... not onli in arguement stuff... oso at the way he treat mi... haiz...
anyway after eating i went hosp... jie say mama wan see mi... i jiu go... actuali today no go coz got test till late... then not going... but went there anyway... 8 plus reach... pei mama till 9 then uncle send mi & jie hm... mama look weak today... she look breathless... she din eat anythin at all... haiz... mama muz hang on...
recently i feel some distance between us... i dunno y but i juz feel it... i feel sho insecure... somehow feel an unstable de feeling... hope it's juz dat i'm too sensitive... hope nothin ish happening... hope we wun "argue" as in verbally go against each other... hope there will be more peace... haiz... i try not to thin on the bad side... i try to thin bout the brighter side le... i dunno wat else to do le... i reali scare 1 day i'll let go... and i noe if the day come... we wun be able to get back... coz there are too many stuff to consider le... i noe he'll oso have unhappy stuff bout mi... but nobody noe... coz he dun say... maybe he scare i over reacted... haiz... lets pray... hopefully....
[[ giving in coz i love you... giving up coz i love you too... ]]
[[ neva noe when someone will reali let go ]]
[[ sorry seems to be the hardest word ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
- well... recently... hosp life carry on... erm... bout mama?? doc say she's better... can go back next week... but she dun look dat gd larz... today she look breathless... 1 thin ish... she can't come back hm yet... coz nobody will be free to take care of her... we gonna study... daddy gonna wk... gonna bring her to those care centre... ko lianz de mama... can't come hm... miss you & ur voice... when will u be back??
well today a bit moody... thinking of the word trust... gonna earn it man... can't ask someone to trust u for nothin... the most important thin in a relationship ish oso trust... well... nothin happenn between mi & him... onli say say nia... hehe... anyway all the best to all... gonna rest le... tml got tp re-test... hope can pass... haven memorise fomulars... hehe... jia you to all frenz who got re-test...
[[ happy b'day ah bao, zhi hao(sis bf) and myself(chi b'day)... wahaha ]]
[[ loving you~ ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
- fri & sat ish my turn to stay to take care of mama... on fri she was sho breathless... she can't slp... keep moving tube de position... then i busy helping her wif the tube & water... then she keep taking out hp to see the wallpaper... the phone ish mi & jie jie get for her de... thin she reali like the wallpaper... then dat nitez i can't sit sia... i wan rest she ask mi do things... then end up hong her slp around 3 plus... then i can get some rest... dat day not enough rest... coz wake up earli for lesson... sat after when sis reach then i went hm slp... evening go visit mama again... then sat nitez stay in hosp wif acc mama... i went resting area study when she slping... coz i wanna study a bit for next week re-test... she wake up can't find mi then she angry... after dat i dare not leave the room... she injected med dat day to make her feel better... sho she wun feel breathless... doc say breathless ish worse than dying... it feel like drowning... but all make her drowsiness... dat nitez she slp soundly... but i can't slp... coz got a auntie keep shouting whole nitez... she wanna go hm... then i try make her quiet... she quiet for 1 hr then shout again... i can't rest... sho tired... on sun i din go back rest in the noon coz nitez i not staying wif her... wanna acc her longer... when hm at nitez... mama recently bad temper... keep throwing temper at mi... not others but mi... haiz... but nvm... i din blame her... sun & mon daddy acc her... but today nobody wif her... sho worry... the auntie in the ward say they'll help mi keep an eye on her... thanx auntie... tml dun have to go sch... but going cut hair... coz ppl say if ppl pass away in ur fam u can't cut hair... then my mama anytime will leave... coz doc say she haven pass the danger period though she look alright... oh ya... the stupid assistant doc keep saying mama wan leave le... he sux... i still prefer her cancer doc... thanx doc & nurse for taking care of my mama...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, July 07, 2006
- rexently have been busy wif project & mama... mama have been admitted to the hosp on tues... sorry mama... i doing project... can't pei u go... but lucky uncle come fetch her... on my way hm... auntie call mi and she ish crying... mama gonna leave mi... her breathing weak & bp low... mi daddy & kor rush down to hosp... uncle come fetch us... after reachin... doc say mama better le... but still scare... daddy stay in hosp wif mama... then we went back... coz tml got sch... wed i launch my project... then half way aunt call mi go hosp cpz mama weak... i tell lect then chiong take cab down... then alot of ppl oso go down even ah bao... then mama can't talk... haiz... but she become better le... dat night jie jie & her bf stay wif her... then she at night wan give up herself... she pull away the tube... mama muz hang on... my sis talk to her then make her go slp... today morning she oso remove tube... then my aunt go talk to her... then everyone ask her dun do silly thin... mi do a tee design for her... but she seems not dat interested... she today behave like kids... keep throwing temper... mama... dun give up wor... we'll be there for u... but this oso show dat she's getting better bahz... hope sho... jia you mama... though doc say if she can go hm... if her condition okie... can go for therapy... but i thin her condition can't go for therapy... but if she can't continue... she onli left wif 4 to 6 months of life... mama... no matter wat we love u... muackz...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Sunday, June 25, 2006
- this week i pass veri fast... mon to thurs went hosp wif mama... but mon onli acc mama there jiu go sch for project le... then went bugis there see project stuff... bi acc mi coz he oso in sch anyway... then jie jie take care of mama... tues to thurs mi acc mama go hosp then go ah yi house then go back hosp pei mama then bring mama hm... tues got jie jie pei... but wed & thurs jie jie down wif fever then i go alone... thurs mama leg swallon... coz too much water intake then too lil out... xia dao wo... sho worry... wed bi got come acc mi fetch mama coz i alone... then got alot of thin to take... reali appreciate it... fri ish my turn to see doc le... sho ex sia... but happy dat no need eat med le... but do a blood test coz i having flu... doc scare ish my thyroid then got flu de... the blood test result not gd... mon need have blood test again... but i thin i other day then go... hehe... fri de eyes check up okie... doc say will put med but no put... onli put iodine... but dat day quite disappointed... coz bi actuali say wanna come fetch mi... scare mi can't see coz actuali got put med marz... but in the end he din come... i went hm alone... haiz... out of sho many days... he onli came 1 day... & ish i ask him come de... thin if i din ask he oso wun come... though fri i ask him dun come... but if he got the heart to come he will de.. but he din.. haiz... quite sad... but....... gers ish always kou shi xing fei de... say they dun wan... actuali they wan... haiz.. guy juz dun understand gers... yest (sat) ish mi & bi half yr le... tot dat he will bring mi out... end up din... we juz rot at his house... his house... i went out to acc him but end up at his house... haiz... today he went out wif his frenz at nitez... sad... we say wan save up sho din go out yest... but today he went makan wif his frenz... sad... today i din go out... coz jie go out... then i acc mama... but bi din even come acc mi or wat... yest he say afternoon can acc mi... haiz...
getting more disappointment... y can't he juz stay by mi when i need him... haiz... izzit enough juz to meet mi once in a while?? i meet him coz i miz him... now he noe i can take care of myself le he jiu neglect my feelings le... where ish the sam i use to noe at qs?? he use to acc mi even if i dun ask him to... he use to check out when i wk... but now everythin ish diff... haiz... tears juz roll down when i thin bout it... guys reali will get bored bout meeting gers?? i dun wanna tell u all this coz i wan u to do thin from ur heart... & not do wat i ask u to do... haiz... pls tell mi wat to do... haiz...
mama eat lesser everyday... & she slp more... sho sad to see her like dat... mama muz jia you... hang on... eat more... love u mama...
[[ though i complain bout this relationship... but everyone will sure complain bout their relationship... half yr of time spend together ish not dat easy to let go... i reali hope dat 1 day he'll be by my side... love u bi~ ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, June 16, 2006
- hmmm... today friday le.. sho fast... 1 week holiday gonna end.. 2nd week coming soon... well... this week i've been quite busy... busy going hosp & wk... wake up earli everyday... sho tired... tues dat ish 13 june... went sentosa wif bi bi.. not go beach wor... ish go watch the 4D magix... & play golf... it's juz mini golf... hehe... thanz bi bi... hehe... reali enjoy... muackz... u spend alot on mi... sorry... next time my turn to treat...
wed ish a bad day... go take mama report... haiz... mama de liver oso have a lump... next week starting therapy... she's sho scare of needle... and the therapy ish use needle de... 4 days a month... 6 hrs 1 day... sho long... ko lian de mama... hope she dun suffer... but lucky thin ish her bone din kena... hers ish 4th stage le... mama muz be strong... doc say it can't be cure... onli can control spreading & prolong her life... jia you mama... u gonna see jie jie grad de... u oso gonna see ah yong *my cousin* get marry de...
after going take report... go watch movie wif hui they all... tot onli a few of us going... end up alot of ppl go... dunno y... but lucky jamie dun mind... sorry jamie... i reali dunno... garfield ish nice... sho ko ai... juz feel like hugging it...
yest go for blood test... the nurse sux... she can't find her holder... then guess where she found it?? she found it in the bin... she use the same glove to go into the bin & on my hand... she wanted to clean the holder then use it on mi.. sux... but her frenz lend her a holder... sux lorz... she din even clean her glove before touchin mi... sux... i give her a face thru out the injection.. she simply sux...
then the rest of the week onli wk wif mama & slack wif bi bi... bi... hope u'll be there for mi... sometimes reali disappointed wif wat u say or do... but dunno how to tell u... this few days i somehow not free still try my best go meet u... u din reali bother to come find mi... nvm... i noe u no consession... but hope it wun be an excuse if i reali need u...
[[ pray hard that god dun make mama leave us... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Thursday, June 08, 2006
- last sunday was fun wor... went climbing & walking for more than 10km wif sam & his aunt... wow... amelia walk sho long... can imagine?? i thin we took 3 hrs plus... got pics to share too... next time lazy upload... after the walk sho hungry sia... hehe... pass by a monkey... it's sho near... near than dat time at sembawang wor.. hehe... going exercise before exams ish great man.. u relax before u study... today last paper le... but ish tp... tp sux... dun understand sia... but lucky jie jie go thru wif mi... somehow understand a bit... ltr do pass yr paper before sit for paper... hope can pass... pass jiu hao le... today com lag lag de... dunno y... com guai guai... hehe...
gers... got a bad news... my mummy de cancer spread to her whole lung le... both lung oso kena... now ish middle stage le... then she need go regular check up again... haiz... i dunno how to tell all of u... if anyone read this wanna tell the rest... go ahead... but if wei noe it... pls dun cry... dun worry bout mi & my fam... we somehow expected it le... juz hope dat the person who need to do somethin will do... mammy... pls dun leave mi... if u reali tired & have to leave... i wun stop... coz u have suffer for yrs le... but u muz at least wait till jie jie graduate... if not daddy & us will have to suffer alot... i love u mammy...
[[ mammy i love u ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Saturday, June 03, 2006
- omg... it's sho near to exams.. today juz done wif first paper... lucky last min understand it.. this few days go out wif jamie... then talk to her alot... she ish a fortunate & pampered ger... hehe... juz dun like ppl bully her... she maybe playful & wild at times but she's nice... harmless... hehe... wed went bugis wif jamie... she go change her default bag... but thurs then have stock... wahaha... she going back on sun after wk... ko lianz... we saw a funny thin... we saw ppl kena summon coz jay walk... wahaha... funny... coz got 2 white uniform ppl between the road to fine ppl... but quite alot of ppl ran off... hehe.. 1st time see... hehe... mi saw alot of thin i like sia... broke le jiu see sho many thin... sux... nvm... shop jiu hao... dun buy... hehe... then we went back quite earli coz i tired... hehe... pai sehz arhz jamie...
thurs after sch meet jamie, jeff, cheng & max study a bit then go c1 eat dinner jiu go hm le...
whereas today 11 jiu finish lesson le... prac cancel... hehe... slack...... then after went hm then meet mei go suntec... jamie pon lesson go wif us... hehe... got electronic & book fair... mei bought canon printer... rich ger... but she sch need for project... bo pian... hehe... bibi come find mi wif ken after lunch... then he acc us until we take cab go off... then he go electronic fair wif ken... we kena a veri farked up cab driver.. mei alight at blk 4 but we need go back sch for foop paper... we ask uncle u-turn... go from hv there... uncle say here can u-turn mehz?? then i say can la... i always see ppl u-turn here de marz... then he say mi... m i the police?? wahz lao... f lorz... i say i leave here sho long i should noe it lorz... then he keep saying m i the police... sux... if he wan say say in a proper way marz... sux lorz... he go another way oso can go de... but turn here & there... same de... but his attitude... i feel like alighting then dump the $$ to him lorz... sux... he sux~!!! scare we late for paper then dun alight lorz... this driver sux~!!! silver cab black listed le... sux~!!! red cab oso black listed... coz jamie say meter jump veri fast.. hehe... i prefer yellow cab... hehe... tml bibi got paper... jia you bibi...
[[ bi... sometime i mistaken u... sorry... i try my best to use a better tone to talk to u le... hope it'll not affect our relationship... i'll neva give up on this relationship... i hope dat u dun give up too... though disappointment stack up... but i will use our sweet memories to cover up... love u... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Thursday, May 25, 2006
- hmmm... today juz watch da vinci wif jamie, hui, sam & kenneath... still got parts dat i dun understand... but nvm... juz let it be... today got lots of tots to share...
hmmm... (some stuff below i oso dunno wat i typing... can ignore if u dun understand)
nobody ish perfect??
ya... i strongly agree...
juz like finding a bf or gf... u'll either get a bf dat ish veri gd to u but not thoughtful enough or u'll find 1 dat ish veri thoughtful but not gd to u enough...
as for gf... u'll either get someone who ish pretty but unreasonable or a not pretty but reasonable... the worse... u'll get someone who ish not pretty yet unreasonable like mi...
gers ish a soft-hearted creature... sho easily be talk over... juz keep treating them gd they'll love u whole heartedly... y?? haiz... & end up being hurt themselves... love reali hurts alot...
guys... they always change... either by peer or themselves... before they have u as their ger... they do everythin for u... but once they got u... everythin start to change... y?? reali hate it... haiz...
i get lazy on myself but guys get lazy on gers... dun get wat i mean... well... i'll starve myself coz lazy go get food... but when i need to do somethin for the guy... i wun be sho lazy... but guys... they are not lazy to get food for themselves... but they are lazy to do thin for ger... wat the... haiz... how can guy understand gers & gers understand guys... communication may not wk out everytime... i learn my mistake... haiz...
gers are always emo & sensitive but guys always wun understand... they juz use bo liaoz & unreasonable to discribe the act of gers...
guys......
i reali can't understand them... who can teach mi how to understand them better... i've learn & attempt not to show my temper... but when disappointment stack up... it will over flow... haiz... all the best for myself bahz... life gonna go on... haiz...
there are some distance appearing... i dunno how & wat i can do... if u love mi... u'll attempt to get mi back by ur side... dun ever give up... everythin need time... if u fail... dun give up... coz i still love u... i will neva stop loving u... i might have the day i can't be by ur side... i wun give up... i juz need u to get mi back...
pls pick mi up from the unwanted toy... i juz need you to love mi...
[[ i dunno wat i can do if nobody gonna do anythin... ]]
[[ i wish i have the you i use to noe... ]]
[[ i tears i shed in my heart... who noes... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Saturday, May 20, 2006
- wow... blogging again... hehe... after going prawning... bibi brought mi to go fishing wor... if i not wrong ish on 6 may... hehe... and recently de activity ish yest... actuali i was thinkin go kbox... long long no go le... but bi bi say he intend to bring mi to night safari... of coz choose dat larz... kbox can go anytime de... hehe... love bi bi... we ask ya mei along... actuali wanna acc her go clementi pasamalam de... but in the end go safari... hehe... sho fun... see alot of animal... but din manage to see monkey... they onli active in the day time... hehe... but see some look like monkey... sho cute... hehe... we go sit tram oso got walk walk... go see bat closely... in front of us got a group of kids & 2 parents... then they damn noisy... sux... screaming like hell... if scare jiu dun come in larz... 2 ang moh came in & ask them quiet... reali damn noisy... feel like sewing their mouth up... got a few kids before entering say dun wan enter le... their parent ask them go... end up screaming... the mother oso scare still ask them go... sux lorz... but our trip not spoil... saw close view of tigger sia... the tired ish juz a glass away from us... he walk towards & pose... sho shuai... but he pee on the glass sia... funny sia... i tot he wan show us butt... then see somethin white on glass... tot ish he fart... but see carefully ish he pee... funny tigger... the onli thin we miz to see ish the wolf... we onli manage to hear it... hippo ish sho fat sia... oso see a close view of the animal dat eat ant... juz next to us... forget the name... onli rmb it ish big & in black & white de... eat ants oso can sho big... wahaha... saw black bear... feel like touching it... hehe... see alot of animal... though same as book drawing... but ish upsize de... reali big sia... mousedeear de baby ish damn small & cute... alot diff from the big one... hehe... 28 bucks reali worth going... hehe... thanz bi bi & mei for the night... reali veri happy... love u 2... oh ya... thanz mei got the pink panter oso... hehe...
[[ love my bi bi more & more each day ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, May 05, 2006
- wow... sho fast end of the week le... tml no sch... hehe... this week quite fast... coz onli study for 4 days... monday, 1st may... labour day & it's a fun day... hehe... woke up earli go see monkey at sembawang wif dear de fam wor... hehe... sho cute sia... after that go pasir ris prawning... end up catch fish instead... din catch any prawn at all... fishing/prawning sho fun... wahaha... went changi see plane & feel the sea... hehe... sho fun... hehe... juz came back from breakfast... lesson half way meet jamie go eat... hehe... yummy... my stomach love mi... hehe... muz do wk le... tata... tc my frenz... dear wan bring mi go fishin soon... yeah... :p
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Sunday, April 02, 2006
- happy april fool to all my frenz... got kena fool?? hehe... a bit late... wahaha... coz no time blog... hehe... happy b'day to my dearest cousin cynthia... hehe... now time ish 6:55am... hehe... dear went m'sia yest... but nvm... tonitez can see him le... miz him... hehe... guess wat i did for april fool?? i din trick ppl wor... surprise horz?? hehe... mi went celebrate my cousin b'day wif my sis, esther & cyn frenz... almost all of them vomit... but lucky i din... mi juz now damn high... now okie le... hehe... almost vomit sia... but din... go shit instead... opps... hehe... i thin cyn most drunk de... hehe... bo pianz... b'day ger... hehe... dear dear not around... but i still got msg him tell him i okie... thin he'll worry bout mi... hehe... i ask mao pei mi msg oso... hehe... gonna slp soon... hehe... tml bring dear de mei out... she alone at hm... hehe... sho ko lianz... hehe... broke le sia... but nvm... hehe... happy day today... coz can see dear soon... hehe... if u all kena fool muz share wif mi wor... wahaha... miz all my frenz too... awaiting for chalet to meet all of u... hehe...
[[ missing you dear ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, March 24, 2006
- long long time din blog le... recently life ish juz slacking... today ish mi & dear 3rd months le... hehe... time pass fast sia... dun sho fast... dun wan sch start... wahaha... 2 weeks ago was fun... went west coast at nitez to play playground... then walk hm coz still earli... dat day mao de pants got sand then he took off in public to remove the sand... another incident ish... mao & dear throwing bottle to each other then mao de jeans accidently drop off... look sho dramatic sia... hehe... but the funny thin ish he juz tighten hao jiu drop... wahaha... oso went jurong swimming... fun fun week... hehe... last week learn to play num ball... brought sam's sis out... met bao... sho long no meet her... hehe... ltr can meet hui they all le... hehe... sho long no meet sia... miz sho many ppl... recently onli meet dear, mao & mei... mei oso heardly le... she now studying... dun wan disturb... hehe... ltr oso getting result... all the best to mi & dear bahz... hope can continue study... sch days ish always better than wking days... hehe... not sho much to worry bout... ltr gonna go appt... hope can dun eat med le... sho sick of it... hehe... recently maple ish part of my life... everytime free jiu maple... nothin to do marz... but juz realise i pump wrong thin gonna retrain new char... heart pain sia... lvl 30 le then noe... sux... hehe... now lvl 23 le... gonna jia you... dear waiting for mi to lvl up... hehe... will update as & when i free... hehe...
[[ loviing you~ ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
- Happy valentine's day to all my frenz... hehe... bit late... hehe... today got ocassion then come blog... hehe... guess wat i bought for dear dear?? i bought a wallet for him... i decide on the design myself de wor... sho li hai rite?? dear dear de taste always weird weird de... yest go shop wif mao... he oso dunno dear will like marz... then we keep saying dear de taste weird weird then mi oso seems weird le... coz mi ish his gf... his taste of ger... dots... hehe... then yest actuali ish pei mao mao go shop for mei stuff... end up i oso got buy... hehe... mao bought a levis long sleeve top for mei... hehe... hai us go whole bugis, ps, centre point then at last found at heeren... then mao treat mi eat ljs... hehe... saw nerd at ljs... sho qiao... happy to see him... sho long no see le... hehe...
this yr de v'day quite happy... though went out late & spend less time together... but overall still happy... hehe... meet mei at 6 plus then dear came holland give mi surprise... hehe... then we went ps eat cafe cartel... mao msg mei but no reply... mao tot mei dun wan meet... but when i call mei she say okie... i thin she tot i told mao le... then mao de frenz wanna go mao house... somethin to do wif his frenz gf de stuff... then he try meet us asap... hehe... mao mao today still gonna run around... today buy flower... then he go ikea, anchor point & tiong find blue rose for mei... hehe... dear ask mao shun pian help him buy... *no sincere* but nvm... he no time go buy... i thin ish my violet rose make mao run around de... coz mine more diff buy... hehe... pai sehz... ma fan ni le... hehe... mei oso got buy thin for mao wor... surprise wor... hehe... she bought adidas perfume... no remove price tag... *she's always sho blur* then i saw it... hehe... guess wat dear give mi?? a file dat he decorate himself... sho nice... hehe... love it... *thanz* muackz... ps outside got sell balloon & flower... then actuali i still di siao say ltr can sa jia flower de price then mao can buy for mei... hehe... but when reach outside... sho pai sehz to say anythin... coz mi ger marz... then weird weird de... ma jiam wan the guy to buy like dat... hehe... dear dear bought 2 balloon for mi & mei... the heart shape balloon i long to have... hehe... sho happy... purple somemore... actuali i like the pink one last time... hehe... then after dat they bought another rose for us... mei de still blue... mine de somethin near to pink... *thanz* hehe... after dat we walk down to heeren... intend to go eat again coz i dun feel full... mei wanna go hm... mao wanna send mei hm... waited quite sometime for cab then late le... sho i tell dear i dun wan eat... we all go hm... tml got sch... * i not going anyway* hehe... exams coming... sianz... hope can pass... hehe... jia you for my frenz too...
[[ when i told u i'd love u foreva, i lied... foreva ish not enough... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
- now ish 24 jan le... have been wif dear for a month le... thanz dear for the happy moment spent wif u... *love love* we have somehow get to noe each other better le... we din reali quarrel wif each other... juz sometime i not happy bout thin then the most we talk bout it jiu okie le... hopefully all this will last... hehe... thanz for tolerating my temper when i not enough slp or bad mood... *ilu* & thanz for not showing temper... my love... muackz... i'll continue to be better... i wanna be the one u will point to & say it's her... juz wan have simple life... i'm juz a plain piece of paper which u'll paint colour on... thanz for painting a smile... *ilu* muackz...
[[ if nothin last forever, will you be my nothin~ ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Monday, January 16, 2006
- hopefully my life will get better... maybe i should say our life get better... *ilu*
i miz u gers... gathering~?!?! hehe... erm... anyone tell mi how's teck~?? he last mon go in hosp then how le~?? i din have chance to ask u guys... keep mi update wor... hope to see u guys damn soon... hehe...
[[ i ' m s h o i n l o v e w i t h y o u ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
- it's a new yr... 2006 le... hehe... this yr i wanna change a new blog skin for new beginning... but gonna wait till i free bahz... no time for dat... hehe... recently oso dunno busy doing wat... but somehow lazy blog... erm... today went out eat fish & co wif dear dear... treat dear dear eat coz yest he bought a skirt for mi... hehe... the skirt ish he choose de wor... hehe... like it lots... *muackz* yest went shop wif mei... bought a top... at last buy somethin for new yr le... then today bought a bag... i thin gonna get a new shoes... but still can't find somethin i like lehz... hehe... should go shop more... hehe... tml gonna rot at hm... dear wking... nobody jio mi out... hehe... somehow save up for end of month use & next month lorz... this month end 1 month wif dear... gonna thin wat to buy... then next month v'day & 2 months ish sho near... 10 days diff nia... gonna save up for dat... not wking de life sho nan guo... gonna save... hehe... dear wking but dun wan use his $$... he oso gonna buy his own stuff de... hehe...
somehow i start to man yuan bout things dat happen between us... but i try to tell myself dat i can't man yuan... it's my choice... i gonna love him for who he ish... like wat he's doing... sorry dear... sometime my temper ish bad... i dun wan let it out jiu become veri quiet or moody... i dun wan to end up quarrelling... sho i choose to keep in silence... sorry for not saying out... but sometime somethin ish better left unsaid... coz ish i expecting some stuff from u... but i din get wat i wan... *not gift... u noe wat i mean bahz...* sho ish i expect too much le... but if i tell u le... u are juz doing wat i say jiu ish not u le... u are juz wat i wan & not wat u are... get it~?? sho i din say out... & sorry for not telling this to u... i realise recently our conversation ish onli half... i try to say juz now... but said half of it onli... u noe where i stop... ish like always not complete kind... but i dunno y... sho maybe it's better writing it here then u free jiu can come read read... but i realise i dunno wat u thinking... dat's guys... they always keep in silence... hope to noe how u thin too bahz... hopefully no communication breakdown... hehe... *ilu* muackz...
[] perfect love -=- loving an imperfect you perfectly... => []
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Thursday, December 29, 2005
- juz feel like finding ppl to talk to... but thin whoeva i talk to oso will give mi same ans... sure ask mi dun thin too much... i noe dun thin too much... but i can't... juz find dat i behave weird this few days... dunno y... i believe dar oso feel dat... talk to him bout it... erm... oso ask mi dun thin too much... sho decided to fan my blog... hehe... i become veri quiet wor... dun reali talk dat much this few days... like change le... i dun like... i wan to be talkative... hehe... erm... weird mi... but dat's the amelia i used to be... hmmm... bu xi huan now de mi... hehe... juz feel bad for dar dar... he keep on entertaining mi... sorry dar... i try to react le... but somehow weird... all i can say ish weird... erm... hopefully wun affect mi & dar dar relationship... anyway... still need bit more time to adapt to his lifestyle too... hehe... today dar came down holland pei mi eat dinner wor... sho happy... tot today cannot see him... hehe... i feel dat i like too long no go into relationship le... a bit weird weird de... still not use to it bahz... somehow still quite fresh... let time prove everythin bahz... hopefully both of us can go thru this... hehe... we gonna jia you together dar dar... hehe... *muackz* i still thin i'm weird... nvm... at least i realise... xing ku ni le dar dar... *love u* hehe... -shy- now trying to make myself feel tired... nvm... go bed lie down... hopefully can get to slp... hehe...
[[ changing~ hopefully to the better... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
- the 1st thin i gonna say ish thanz des... reali... well... everyone will thin... des~?? ya him... thanz... juz had a chat wif him at msn... he ask mi bout my partner... ya... he noe sam... praising him some more... hehe... he'll fly if he see this... wahaha... talk to him bout the prob between mi & my dear... erm... sorry dear... i still need sometime... but now... after chatting wif des... decision ish out... i juz cut thin short... des told mi i can have a gd talk wif my dear dear or juz kick it off my brain... i reply him dat sam din explain anythin... sho i assume some stuff better left unsaid... coz i'm afraid to noe the reason behind it too... maybe it's reali better not say out... i thin we'll be happier... sho i shouldn't anyhow thin le... dun keep asking myself y le... should come to an end le... juz let the matter come to an end... gonna ask myself dun anyhow thin... bo pianz... gers like to anyhow thin de... hehe... thanz des... another thin bout confident... i thin i muz let it rest too... coz it will end up as a barrier between mi & dear... i wan him to see the smile i used to have... :) hehe... dear... i'm sorry... i'll smile more... be the 1 u used to noe & love... hehe... tml onwards i'll spend most of my time on studies le... next week jiu test le... still got alot to chiong... hehe... dat means less time wif dear dear le... dun miz mi too much... hehe... jia you wor dear... muz study arhz... hehe... hopefully after this week we got more to talk & more laughter... *love you* opps... -blush- hehe... go slp le... tml gonna start study le... jia you for myself & frenz too...
[[ dar... though u din ask or say anythin bout my feelings... u juz trust mi... i noe it... wanna tell u... i love u... give mi ur heart & trust.... i'll treasure it... u can neva be replace... love u lotz... *muackz* hopefully no more sorry... ]] *a bit mushy* hehe...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
- [[ well well... oh ya... dat day go watch king kong... i lose my earring... left side... sianz half... always like dat... ]]
today ish the 26 dec or should i say 27 dec... i thin i start from 24th dec... hmmm... i've accept him... sho my life ish brighten le... time to say who he ish le... it's sam... guess most of you noe long ago le... hehe... erm... i thin the barrier ish no longer the guy... ish myself... somehow no much confident... i dunno y... but i thin i need sometime... but i noe he's my life now... he's my everythin... i can't let him go... i can't afford to... erm... i thin coz the time we spend together before we are together ish alot... the kinda feelings ish quite strong le... hehe... somehow scare dat coz i'm his 2nd gf... then scare he'll wanna 'try' being wif other char or wat de gers... i'm scare... but i gonna trust him... time will prove everythin... *muackz* hehe... x'mas eve went meet wei to take the x'mas gift... we went great world coz we tot not much ppl will go there... hehe... nesh came meet us then we went ks play pool... coz wei thin no place go today... hubby came to surprise mi... din noe he coming sia... hehe... hub hub won a tigger from the ks arcade outside dat machine... onli use 3 bucks... hehe... sho happy... hehe... after playing pool... nesh went meet frenz then wei went hm... hub hub pei mi while waiting for all the rest to contact mi... we went tiong spend all the time... coz meeting place ish around tiong... waited damn long sial... hui 1st to reach... then gene came meet hub for a while... he's wif a ger... should say foreva de... hehe... hubby din go meet his frenz... guess partly oso coz of mi... thanz... *muackz* hehe... mei 2nd to reach... can imagine the time?? she finish wk then come... mao mao 3rd... hubby saw the present... but he din suspect ish my gift to him... he believe ish mei wan give frenz de... coz he tot we say not to buy for each other then he din tot dat i'll buy... hehe... opps... :x sorry... din mean it... hehe... :p we decide to go tiong bahru park play 1st while waiting... coz we gonna rot soon... hehe... reach there jiu start playing le... sho happy... time spend wif hub & frenz are sho happy... everyone start coming le... hehe... mi & hub got bit of prob dat day... erm... dunno wan mention anot... promise hub dat we'll forget bout it... but nvm... i juz write... erm... clara & frenz went tiong then when they came back... mi & hub ish on the top of the playground train... seeing stars... sho sweet... then i was lying on him... i saw clara they all coming back... then hub say dun feel like letting clara noe... i oso dunno y... but juz feel pain in heart... i jiu neva reali talk to him after he say dat... i try not to thin... the gift giving thin not veri success... coz i drop clara give de choc... sorry... i din mean it... i reali din see the opening there... sorry... thin always happen between mi & her... haiz... sorry... she say wanna get a new gift... sorry... reali feel bad... haiz... the gift giving to hubby should say somehow success... but hub de expression not i expected de... i thin he too pai sehz to talk le... hehe... after dat we start changing present... hub help mi pick present from sok... hehe... it's a red pig... sho huggie kind... hehe... i can't pack my feelings well... i still thinking bout wat hub say... then keep quiet for quite sometime... but try act normal in front of hub... but he feels dat somethin wrong wif mi... sorry... i din wanna spoil mood at dat moment sho i keep silence... erm... mei asked mi wat happen... feel better after talking... but still..... hmmm... dun understand y... until now... i still dunno y... but nvm... gonna forget as wat we say at roof... i told him i unhappy when we at roof... he guess dao wat happen then we jiu promise to forget... hope i can let go... coz i say i'll... sho i muz... jia you... hehe... after roof... we went hm... coz all damn tired...
yest went hub house pei him... watch lord of the ring... we watching vcd to kill time recently... go out muz spend alot sial... sho rather stay at hm rot... can keep each other acc some more... hehe... talk bout leaving kinda thin wif hub... sho scare dat he'll leave... actuali he have been in my life for quite long le... if he suddenly leave i dunno wat i can or will do sial... he say he oso scare this will happen... hope no one thinks bout leaving... if no one thin jiu no one will say jiu nothin will happen... my happily ever after... hehe... *love u hubby*
today went bugis wif hub... went each v8... we 2 not much $$ but still went eat... hehe... but price okie... quite reasonable... after dinner... we went suntec... actuali wanna go fountain... but in the end we din go... hub hub catch a tigger from arcade for mi... this time 2 bucks onli... hehe... sho xing fu de mi... hehe... 3rd tigger from hub hub le... next time take pics... hehe... mao ask us wanna go play pool marz... we jiu agree lorz... coz oso nothin do... on the bus to hub house... go ppl vomit... make both of us feel sho disgusted... we faster go to level 1 of the bus... eee... sho er sial... went we reach hub house... mao say not going le... sianz half... but mao came meet us... i went hm change then we go cycle... as in they cycle... then hub give mi a ride... xing ku ni le... *muackz* thanz... hehe... we went clementi eat... guess which way they go from~?? they go dat path where ppl go there run de... damn quite & scary sial... hehe... damn tired now... go slp le... recently get used to slp earli & wake up around 12 le... thanz hub... make mi have this habit... hehe... life reali changes wif u around mi... *muackz*
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
- erm... this few days alot of thin happen sia... dunno where to start... & how to... erm... let's start wif... erm...mi go see doc... sat got make up lesson for sw... then gonna go back sch at 8... sho earli... guess wat we do~?? volleyball~?? no way... we are doing some human domino thingy... which require us to sit under the hot sun on the track... then gonna drop like a domino & lie on ur frenz... everybody will thin... guy & gers... ya... erm... jamie ish late... then when she reach... her group ish settle down le... sho mi this lil brain wanna save everyone jiu sabo her & ben... hehe... pai sehz... hehe... after dat meet sam, ricky, andy & frenz go makan mac... sho lucky of us... dun need queue... coz andy reach earlier than us... when we reach... he's rite in front of the queue... hehe... after eating... jamie bf came... he's late... yet he give kinda unhappy face... dunno izzit he always this face or wat... kinda thin... jamie ish sho ko lianz... but dare not tell her... i thin she can get someone better... somehow thin it's not her cup of tea... erm... dat's wat i thin... went see doc coz mama worry mi... i'm sick for 11 days on sat... then mama keep asking mi see doc... sam acc mi go see... at my house there... hehe... doc sho li hai... i din tell her i on medication she jiu noe le... hehe... after dat went hm prepare then went help kelly & bao buy movie ticket... happy 1 yr anniversary to them... hehe... went watch movie wif mei, sam & mao... oso same show wif bao... but get a far seat from them... let them have their own time... guess wat show~?? it's the promise... pls dun watch... reali sux... sam thin dat it a comedy... hehe... after the show... met bao & kelly go makan... but mi neva eat... too tired le... no mood to eat... erm... dat day everyone kinda moody... suan-ing each other kind... erm... kinda weird... mi damn shag dat day... maybe coz of the med... reach hm jiu k.o le...
erm... now ish time bout mi & my lil someone... dun wan tell u guys who izzit 1st... :p hehe... erm... somehow feel dat i've found my lil someone... someone who will accept mi for who i am... hehe... happy for mi~?? but everythin have not started... hehe... erm... actuali it shd be a talk to my lil someone dat day... making thin clear dat it may not have a starting... telling him feelings ish not there... i did try search for feelings... coz he's reali gd to mi... i thin i've found some feeling... but uncertain bout it... hehe... but... after the lil talk... thin somehow become better... we tot dat we will not be dat close after saying out wat we thin... erm... he ish kind of person who avoid stuff de... but this time round... i make him face it... facing it together... hehe... we still can be as close as the past... or even closer... coz we noe how each other feels... he tell mi y he went mia dat time... *thin u all noe who le* & all other stuff... sorry... we both dun like ppl saying this... but it's reali a need... sorry for making u mia... u shd have ask mi wat it mean by my dp... but all this have let us have the chance to understand each other... thanz god... i wun wan to miz someone like him... he's someone who wun mind who i am now or even in the past... i thin this ish the best gift i ever receive... juz him... but there's still barrier between us... dat ish "him"... i still need sometime... we have talk bout it... he noe it... he understand it... & i'll be giving him a reply... i dunno when... but... hope to remove the barrier 1st... it's unfair to him... thanz for the waiting time u spend on mi... more than half a yr le... i'm human... i noe it... now... i'm touched... ur waiting ish not a waste... & will be appreciate... hehe... now... i'm still trying to gather more feelings for my lil someone... hopefully no more hurting stuff between us... muackz...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
[[--happily ever after...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
- i should start wif yest... yest went sam's house for steamboat... damn fun... sam fam went m'sia... onli left him... sho ko lian... hehe... decided to eat steamboat as a kind of belated b'day thin... hehe... finish sch at 3... waited for him go hm together but he got project thingy to do... sho... i went hm first... meet mei, mao & shanny at ps... went carrefore shop for food while waiting for sam... we bought 60 plus de food... sponsor by sam's mum... thanz... then go his house... become maria of the day... cut the food... mao went hm then come wif his bicycle... hehe... then mei ish the tai tai of the day... she watch tv while waiting to eat... & sam... he's banned from going into kitchen wif mi... going into wif him will make mi mad... but he thin it's fun... wahaha... his cutting skill ish damn "gd" sia... hehe... he did help larz... erm... not dat bad oso... hehe... he learn how to remove the plastic from crab stick... he's sho happy going in kitchen... hehe... we realise food too much after cutting everythin... & most of the food ish mao take de... wahaha... he ate quite alot... should say he ate the most of the food... hehe... sho fun... watch vcd while waiting for food to digest then continue eat... mei drink alcohol then keep saying headache... she seems like she drunk le... actuali ask her stay at sam house... but she say cannot slp at ppl house... hehe... i fell a slp while watching vcd... hehe... sho tired... hehe... when mao mao wake mi up ish 4 le... she told mi mei wanna go hm... i woke up... when out and saw everythin clear le... maria dun need do thin... wahaha... go wash up then send mei hm... slept at 6 plus... today woke up at 7 plus... slp till sho shiok... hehe... went eat wif sis & mammy... met sam, mao, mei & jong at qt club... then went holland grap some food jiu go hm le... & now ish my slping time... somehow can't slp... hehe... go lie on bed... tata...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Monday, December 05, 2005
- now... the time ish 1.30 am... should say ish a veri earli morning of monday... 5th dec... well... guess y i will say all this... coz... i gonna blog stuff today ish i dun like de... somehow saddie kind... sho hoping after blogging... when i wake up... days after this will be happy & memorable... hehe... well... wat reali happen i oso cannot reali rmb all... but the thin dat i can clearly rmb ish... teck ish admitted into hosp... his lung collapse... omg~!! heard it from nesh... decide go visit him the next day... sho ko lian... i oso dunno how to write it out... but it's reali painful... went his house visit him instead... coz he discharge le... sho happy to noe he discharge... he's sho thin & pale... see le oso heart pain... onli mi, clara, nie & hui went visit him... the rest didn't go...
2nd thin ish sam went mia... for i thin 3 days?? dunno wat to say... somehow feel frenz missing kinda thin... starting mi damn worry... call him like hell... then rmb dat we say mia b4... then i guess he mia... ask mao help mi contact him... oso can't get him... msg him for 2 days... get a sorry as a reply... quite pissed... dunno wat ish happening... the day b4... everythin ish alright... since he wanna mia i jiu let him be lorz... he say he wan thin bout thin... jiu let him be better... haiz... i thin the happy thin ish he mia finish le... everythin ish back to normal le... maybe ish not dat close le bahz... haiz...
i thin a thin dat ish more happy than sad ish... bout my illness... doc say... i can eat seafood le~!! & i onli need eat 2 tablet instead of 3 each time... but still 3 times a day... erm... but doc say gonna eat at least 1 & half yr to 2... dat's a sad thin... sho long~!!! i'm going crazy~!! recently oso will nearly forget to eat med... starting to be forgetful... hehe... actuali ish all the while bahz...
some of the stuff happen dun need say le bahz... wat else ish diff... oh ya... i receive a msg from him... but dun wan tell ya content... wahaha... :p & an important thin... i've done the lil somethin i did for quite sometime... wat izzit oso dun wan say... coz he got see mi blog... dun wan let him noe wat izzit... achievement sia~!! hehe... but feelings when seeing his msg ish not dat strong le... hehe... thin everythin will be back to normal... hehe... but i'm veri happy dat i have been single for 8 months~!! believe it?? hehe... reali.. it's a kinda achievement... hehe... but guess it's my life for long... dun feel like being attached le... maybe it's onli for the time being or maybe for long.............
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Sunday, November 27, 2005
- hmmm... it have been long since i last blog... hmmm... well... nothin much happen... rmb dat i went kbox wif mei & sam on sun... sam 1st time go... go till 3... mon shag... training damn xin ku... thinking wan join vb marz... now sw damn fun... but dunno real training will be lagi tough marz... hehe... gonna keep fit... hehe... nan de thin stuff come out from mi... another thin ish pei jamie... hehe... she alone sia... hehe... tues went mei mama b'day celebration... went buy mei's present wif sam b4 dat... then sam pei mi go find them... but he went off after dat... which means... onli pei mi walk in... hehe... thanz... dat day was fun... play till veri crazy... thanz bei *big bf*, david *bf for the day* & mei *my gf*... wahaha... took few pics... damn crazy... hehe... then for wed... damn shag... mei b'day... cannot ko... we went town... watch harry porter... not bad... gonna see the next show... coz haven end... but cut off alot... story bk content got alot of pages... show onli 2 & half hr... where enough~?? hehe... we smuggle kfc in to eat... yummy... hehe... then ltr juz go opp cut cake... then play... mi ate half the cake... wahaha... thurs went hm rest... but didn't slp in the noon... onli slept earli... fri... still feeling tired... went hm at 2... shiok... love the lecturer sia... hehe... everytime earli release... hehe... nitez went play pool a while then went to reach for the sky... hehe... try to stand up... actuali ish not dat scary... as long as u are not trying to do stunt jiu wun drop le... hehe... went hm at around 2... everybody ish sho tired... hehe... stupid sam did stupid stunt... then his whole bike flip... sho scary... starting see like no injury... but after a while... all injury come out... all bleeding... aiyoz... scary lehz him... still can laugh... & sho happy dat he fall... crazy... hehe... whereas today... onli went eat wif fam jiu no go out le... too lazy... sam & mao go ks no jio... dun wan talk to them le... humph... ;p
i decide to buy him a x'mas present... sho i'll start saving up... shun pianz jian fei... hehe... i dunno i wan say dun wan him get wrong idea or hope he'll not forget there's still mi... dun bother bahz... better than thin like hell... hehe... hope he dun see this jiu can le... i dun thin he'll too... hehe...
x______ii missiing you_______x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
some pics took on mama b'day...
mei b'day
Sunday, November 20, 2005
well... today iish a sat... or should i say yest... i didn't go for my make up lesson slp all the way till 6 plus... went eat wif jie... met mei, jong & mao a while jiu go hm le... met bei after alighting... then saw kevin... omg... damn long no see him... suddenly see him dunno wat to say sia... hehe... but happy to noe he's okie... hehe... well... yest... have test till 2... but i finish at 1... sho shiok... 5 de lesson 1 jiu finish le... wahaha... went bugis wif sam... then met mao, mei & jong at holland slack... sho sianz...
thurs ish a nightmare... go for blood test... went sch for presentation 1st then go blood test... went everywhere alone... sho ko lianz... guess wat... i went register then juz go straight to room 43... then the doc ask mi come back 2 hrs ltr... coz my blood test can mum mum de... ass... hungry... mi neva eat for the past hr coz of blood test... now say can eat... i told her i having lesson... cannot wait... then she say... come back tml lorz... f... i miz lesson for this lorz... i dun wan mark late or absent for this toopid thin... i wanna preserve when i wan pon lesson de lorz... ass... then she veri bu shuang de say... then u wait for 1 hr lorz... f........... i noe i should let those ppl who can't eat to go 1st... but her attitude sux... i'll feel dat my starvation ish worth if she use a better tone... i listen to music while waiting... then i realise they call names de... sho off my music... watch tv instead... hehe... i realise i'm the youngest there... i'm sho young... hehe... half an hr ltr... she at last call mi... when in wait a while jiu my turn le... i saw her take out 3 empty tube... i told myself... i gonna faint for sure... this time cannot scream for help le... coz i'm alone... gonna act brave... i see her poke the needle into my skin... she search for my veins sia...she didn't poke the right place... then keep saying ur veins will run de... last time dat private doc take not like dat lorz... *no skill* wahaha... veri pain lorz... ko lianz mi... she found it at last... blood rush down... she took the 1st tube easily... the 2nd tube... i can feel my fingers numb... my blood somehow stop... then she say... wow... ur blood will stop de... then she remove the needle a bit then poke in again... she sux... damn pain lorz... then she say... i need at least 2 tube... i was thinking *blood guai guai come out... PAIN~!!!* in the end... she took 2 tube... sho ko lianz de mi... then took cab back sch went eat wif jamie & frenz... dunno still got how many blood test to go b4 cured... i guess b4 cure... i'll die due to lack of blood... wahaha... sho tired de day...
x_______ii missiing you________x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
- yest... clara b'day... happy b'day ger... her gift ish all last min buy de... hehe... pai sehz... we went shop fpr 2 days... but can't find stuff for her... hehe... i met ivy earli then meet clara, clara bf *cedric* & shanny at bugis... we went ljs coz cedric haven eat... sok, liang & teck met us there... liang & teck bought a big mickey for her... wow... sho xin fu... we went shop then went suntec... hehe... met nie, robin, vincent & nesh... vincent hair ish blue... wow... we went pizza hut eat... after eating... mi, ivy & hui went buy cake... run like hell... shun pian shop then bought a necklace for her... hehe... play cake again... clara & her bf kena di siao by mi... she seems unhappy bout it... then her bf make mi back... i thin she dun feel gd bout it bahz... sorry... i noe how it feels like when the 1 u like playing wif another ger... i kena b4... by a "her"... haiz... dun say le... will make mi & "her" friendship no gd... haiz... back to clara... hope she wun get it wrong... mi now reali treasure friendship... maybe ish coz quarrel till sianz le... hope she understand no one can replace him in my heart for the time being... he still stand a veri important & special place in my heart... hehe... dreamt bout him recently... not much stuff... 1 ish dream till i cry... i oso forget wat dream le... but i noe i woke up wif tears in my eyes... then the 2nd de ish bout we patch up... sho happy... & yest ish he cycle a red bike... sho cool... hehe... but all this wun happen de... hehe... juz can dream... actuali i sometime thin... do i wan him back~?? i oso dunno... haiz... call him yest ask him where got bakery shop in suntec... sho happy he pick up... though it's juz a few sentences... i still veri happy to noe he's okie... hehe... mi wan go slp le... tata...
x______i missiing you_______x
Signing off~
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
- now ish about my slping time le... tml still got study... lesson 9-5 lorz... sux... after dat going out wif nie... hehe... yest saw clara bf... seems gd... sho sweet of him to pei clara at wk... hehe... this few days meet mao & sam nia... go makan, go slack... nothin much... sho sianz de life... still missing him as usual... dunno whether how ish he now... totally no news for i thin 1 mon plus... forget how long le... sho long... haiz... nvm... it's gd oso... somehow will forget some stuff... trying to forget the past but end up forget wat happen yest instead... i now live the life dat everybody wish to have... everyday i wake up... i forget wat i've done yest... hehe... sho tired now... i thin gonna sick soon... feel a bit giddy... go slp le... nitez...
x_______i missing you________x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Saturday, November 05, 2005
- dunno y feel sad now... wat m i thinking~?? someone's nick~?? i oso dunno... i shouldn't talk bout some memories wif mao dat day... i dreamt bout dat person at nitez sehz... i oso stunned... y will~?? i should have forget everythin... y i'm not yet... haiz...i'm afraid dat 1 day he say he got gf le... i dunno wat will be my reaction... but i noe i'll break down... trying to forget wat ish love & how it feels like... i muz... i dun wan hurt myself or other le... this few day still sho sianz... doing same thin... now damn tired... sch like hell... hehe... class... sianz half... onli morning can see my buddy... then the rest diff class wif them le... sho sianz... i oso dun wan talk much le... wait till there ish better thin then say... yest quarrel wif mei... sux man... not surpose to lorz... hope will not spoil friendship coz of this... sorry mei... i oso dunno whose fault... but i believe both... sorry...
[[ it hurts to cry... but it hurts more to cry wif a smile... i choose to play in the rain when i feel sad... coz i noe... if i cry... nobody will see it... in the rain... tears can be controlled... ]]
x_______i missiing you________x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Sunday, October 30, 2005
it's 2nd last day of holiday le... guess wat i did today~?? i did a veri meaningful thin... i go escape wif mei, nie & kor... wahaha... those who read sure will say like dat call meaningful~?? wahaha... to mi it ish... coz muz enjoy... it's reali worth going... coz i saw someone... who~?? make mi sho happy... wahaha... it's jer... we reach there... the 1st thin we play ish wet & wild... y~?? coz while playing will dry... wahaha... we keep talking bout ppl... then i thin it's weird to wear jeans to escape play... wahaha... they keep telling mi this & dat ppl weird but i can't see... while we waiting for panasonic which ish known as alpha 8 now... i saw jer... then talk to him a min then he go play his own stuff le... hehe... kena suan by mei 2 thin... 1st, he wore jeans to escape... 2nd, they tell mi sho many ppl i can't see... i saw jer from a small gap... wahaha... i oso dunno y i can't see ppl they talking bout... hehe... i tried gold coast... somethin i scare to play... coz nie say if i play gold coast then she play inverter wif mi... inverter ish a column of 4 wif dunno how many roll... then it'll spin all the way to the top whereby on top u will be upside down... sho fun... but our ko lian leg kena ya till pain... they got to make sure we dun drop down fron top... sho it gonna be tight... hehe... i actuali ask jer to pei mi play either pirate or inverter... but he come dat time we queue till the 1st person le... sho he didn't join us for inverter... we went play pirate... his frenz queue then we play... wahaha... his 2 frenz play 2nd round... coz they wan sit at the back... nie & kor sit opp us... then mei sit on my right then jer on left... it's quite empty at my side... then the person ask ppl come... suaw enough it's kids... we intend to sit behind which ish last 2nd roll... then mei went to kor & nie there... ps sehz... the kids ish screaming like hell larz... not coz of scare... ish play... then jer suddenly scream... omg... his scream~ damn sharp lorz... then they started to go against each other... here goes my ko lianz ears... i drag him pei mi play wet & wild... then he dun wan... he going hm soon coz going clubbing at nitez... clubbing... sounds sho familia but somethin which i wun noe how it ish like again... maybe yrs ltr~?? hehe... actuali we wanna sit 4 together de... but coz max 3... mei, nie & kor 1... mi & jer 1... & his 2 frenz another 1... hehe... the first slide... i sit behind... coz somebody say dun wanna become sho wet... but from the start i splash water till the end sehz... sho for 2nd slide we change... wahaha... we're sho wet... esp mi... all wet lorz... wahaha... sho fun... maybe wif him bahz... i oso dunno... but i noe i see him i jiu happy le... hehe... dat day i say i no see him for days... then next day jiu saw him at my house downstair le... then yest i juz say see when free can pass him my hp... then saw him at escape... i reali thin escape ish damn qiao... at neighbouring place can't say qiao... but this time ish pasir ris wor... omg... anyway... i'm still happy now... wahaha... ;p after he went off... we went play gold coas then go the fun fair there... we won a BIG bear wif 14 bucks & a small bear from spinning wheel... somemore got 2 quest ppl wk there... hehe... but we no privilege... but nvm... their job... oh ya... they're celebrating helloween from 28 to 30... sho we got to see those fake monster & ghost... wahaha... sho scary... esp the old chi jiang shi... hehe... go org org le... tata... nitez...
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
- well... damn long no blog le... y?? sho busy sehz... well... i guess i onli gonna update bout mi illness bahz... gonna go on med for a yr or sho bahz... erm... i oso dunno wat to say... critical or not... i oso dunno... onli can say not to an wei my frenz & myself... sho sick... 6 weeks ltr gonna have blood test again... sho tired of hate it... humph... i everyday gonna eat 4 med... all pink... oso can't eat seafood... haiz... how to survive~?? life sho sucky... i noe how jie & mama feels le... haiz... lucky mi onli can't eat seafood... eggs can eat... can't survive without dat... haiz... but gonna face the fact... wahaha... onli thin i'm unhappy ish his reply... haiz... onli can say... it's over le... haiz... but there's always sunshine after the rain... after the check up went ivy house for chiazz steamboat... well... should say it's for gers... coz got 12 gers... 7 of us plus mei, shanny & ivy's 3 sis... hehe... sho happening... sho full... sho happy... wahaha... i will neva forget dat day... hehe... but at first clara make us disappointed... coz she say will leave earli... then her frenz xi shen... bluff her he got dental ltr... dental got sho late de mehz~?? anyway thanz clara's frenz... hehe... where by this few days ish rot... coz sch gonna start soon... but i'm broke le... how to survive sehz... damn it... but i thin gonna find weekend job le... arbo reali broke... hehe... enjoying my life till sch starts... hehe... tc...
x_______i missiing you________x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
Friday, October 14, 2005
- today no time to type sho much... wan slp le... hehe... juz now... went poly clinic see doc wif mei... *thanz mei* then doc gif mi appointment go hospital cheak up... sound sho jia lat... now... cannot run from all this anymore... gonna be brave & face it... haiz... mi heard need go hospital jiu stunned le... everybody who heard going hospital oso stunned... mi fam 2 person went hosp le... i'm 3rd... haiz... dunno wat we've done... y all like dat... we owe somebody somethin~?? hope all will fully recover... *pray hard* ppl who read this... i dun need anyone to ko lianz mi... if i need i wun be writing all this nia... hehe... go slp le... tata...
x______i missiing you______x
[[ neva miz the chance to miss you... missing u every moment... ]]
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-n-
it's mOi! ;*
x____. * : Lil'Lia : * .____x
[ : + ' 19 Th|s yR ' + : ]
[ : + ' Fr|eNdLy ' + : ]
[ : + ' sOc|abLe ' + : ]
[ : + ' nO|sY ' + : ]
x____. * : Lov3 : * .____x
[ : + ' b3Lov3d Ch|aZz.... ' + : ]
[ : + ' We| w3i *LaO pO* ' + : ]
[ : + ' cLaRa *Super noisy* ' + : ]
[ : + ' cOnNi3 *n|e Ni3* ' + : ]
[ : + ' j|nG Hu| *sUp3r bLuR* ' + : ]
[ : + ' |vY *Sw3et|e* ' + : ]
[ : + ' sOk LenG *sU sU~!!* ' + : ]
[ : + ' EaTiNg *can spend all my $$ on food* ' + : ]
[ : + ' cHoCoLaTe *yUmMy* :p ' + : ]
[ : + ' sTeAmBoAt~!!! ' + : ]
[ : + ' wAtCh|nG th3 StArz |n tH3 SkY ' + : ]
[ : + ' wAtCh|nG f|rEwOrK~!!! *sho beautiful* ' + : ]
[ : + ' s|t bY tH3 BeAcH *n|t3z* ' + : ]
[ : + ' wAtCh|nG mOv|e ' + : ]
[ : + ' sLeEp|nG |n cLasS ' + : ]
[ : + ' mY hUbbY *mUaCkZ* ' + : ]
x____. * : hAt3s : * .____x
[ : + ' b3tRaYaL ' + : ]
[ : + ' LiArZ ' + : ]
[ : + ' BaCkStAbBeR ' + : ]
[ : + ' pRoMiSe bReAk3r ' + : ]
[ : + ' tO b3 aLoNe ' + : ]
[ : + ' COPY CATS~!!! *pls have originality* ' + : ]
[ : + ' tHe pHraSe ::: *UP TO U* & *DUN THINK TOO MUCH* ::: ' + : ]
x____. * : wiish : * .____x
[ : + ' happiiness ' + : ]
[ : + ' laughter ' + : ]
:: + :: perfect love :: + :: loving an imperfect you perfectly :: + :: perfect love :: + ::
+ . + LovE mI fOr wHo i aM... dUn lOvE mI foR whO u Wan mI tO be... + . +
[==if loving u ish wrong==]
[==i dun wanna be rite anymore==]
x______i misssiing you_______x
Signing off~
-O-x-Y-g-3-N-
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